Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Aaugh!

This fasting stuff is HARD! I'm allowing myself homemade vegetable soup, eggs, bread, some fruit, WATER. It's interesting how much my head aches. Not debilitating, but it hurts. I don't know if it's the absence of something I have gotten used to eating or just the lack of food. I'm dreading getting bored with the soup.

So spoiled. So spoiled. When I think about what many other peoples don't have to eat, I'm embarrassed.

I keep thinking of sneaking food. Hello! I'm not hiding stress eating from a certain someone or comforting myself when he's gone. This is an alignment with God fast! I'm thinking He'd know when I slipped. Pretty dumb. Interesting confrontation with the nature of temptation, though.

I've fasted before. The first 3 days are the hardest. I'm wondering about the drive to Columbus and about the eating when I'm down there. A matter of prayer, for sure. Ugh. I'd hate to have to effectively start over after having been to see Dave, but he's the bigger deal.

Man 0 man. Sixty-one and still so much growing up to do!

2 comments:

  1. How long and why are you fasting?

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  2. Twenty-one days, It's easier in some ways now. No headache, now. Temptation for sweets is still there. I love the push to turn off the thinking about food thing. That sure takes discipline I haven't applied here in a long time.

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