Jan 7

First
Prov
If I seek wisdom and understanding and insight, it takes me to God. Well, I'm conflicted. Much of my church life has pushed find God, find God, find God and trash my ability to think. How much of Alice is to be or is just naturally in my thinking? Not excited about being turned into a Christian robot. What good is that? Yet, I want the protection and covering of God. Well, if God is indeed knowing and merciful and knows the struggles of my heart, He can clear all this up. I want that. I want to be someone I'd be proud and happy to be.

Ps
Defense depends on God, huh? Wicked fall in their own pit, huh?

Mat
Boy, it's all about the heart inclination, isn't it? Don't do stuff to draw attention to "Look, she's a super Christian" That's the reward in itself. AND Be evangelistic.

Gen
I'm going to piggyback on something SER started in a post. She was ticked that Abram let Pharoah add Sarai to his haram. Made me think of God not putting up with that behavior. God stepped in on Sarai's behalf.

Well, he did it again in today's reading. Sarai hustled Hagar into build a baby. When Hagar got pregnant, she despised Sarai [wrong behavior] Sarai treated her harshly [wrong behavior] and Hagar ran off. And God appeared to Hagar, the mistreated who was a party in this spiral of wrong behavior. First time I'd put the pieces together of God stepping in when a person of lesser power is mistreated. Thanks for the insight!